Most of the patients I work with, both young and old, have attempted suicide in one way or another. The public consensus attributes suicide as an act of cowardice, a trait wherein excessive fear prevents an individual from taking a risk or facing danger. By this comparism, it is believed that the individual could not handle whatever it is that they were going through and hence choose suicide as the best resort. Is it really true that such people lack courage? Ever wonder the courage it requires to decide to commit suicide?
Suicide, which simply means ending one’s own life, is an awful act for anyone to engage in, especially young people. I don’t believe people who commit suicide are cowards because it takes a lot of strength to come to that conclusion of hopelessness for anyone to end their life. It is not a weakness of anyone to jump in front of a moving car or shoot one’s self with a gun. It’s not cowardly of anyone to hang themselves or intentionally overdose or drown. It takes strength, but it is not a strength coming from the right place. It’s bravery that comes from the devil. In 2 Timothy 1:7, its says that God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power (courage), love and sound mind. Knowing that the counterfeit can not exist without the original, I believe Satan also gives an evil version of power (courage). It is such courage that compels people to shut off their senses and engage in suicide. I can see such similar powers fighting with Paul, and hence he said that the very things I want to do, I’m unable to do them, but the things that I don’t want to do are the same things I find myself doing (Romans 7:15).
I am not praising suicidal behavior in any way. Instead, I am encouraging us to pay attention to the forces in this world deceiving people into believing what’s not pure, powers deceiving people that there’s no other way to find peace in their struggles, that there’s no hope.
For the past ten years I have dealt with my own battle of not wanting to be alive. Whenever I am in this state of mind, I result starvation. Some years are better than others— my lowest moment was when I was abnormally at a low weight because I had been starving myself for so long. For this particular year, my suicidality was so severe, I thought I was actually going to die, but Grace always pulls me back•••
I believe the difference between people like me and people who commit suicide is Who we anchor ourselves to, the one we have placed our faith in.
The Bible says: For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places…..(Ephesians 6:12). Instead of courage, strength, and sound mind rising and triumphing over the struggles we face; the devil equips and feeds the mind of people with fear, leaving them powerless and utterly hopeless. The devil fills these people’s minds with negative thoughts about themselves and their situations instead of thoughts of empowerment and peace.
Philippians 4:8 says: Finally, brothers, whatever is pure, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is true, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. As believers, I urge us all to ponder over these things of noble report as mentioned in the scripture above. There is hope for your life, anchor your life with Jesus and never succumb to thoughts of suicide.
If you know anyone battling suicidal thoughts, please encourage them with the hope found in Christ and keep them in prayers. I hope to bring awareness and an attempt to change the perspective on the topic of suicide and also to encourage us all to be kinder to each other, especially those who are always fearful, cry easily, are uncomfortable in a crowd and those who experience mood swings or out of touch with reality or anyone you see who’s struggling in life. Be kind, be all ears; Love more, and above all, pray more for each other—
Deep in my heart, I do believe that we’re put on this earth to support each other, no one person can achieve anything without the help of another••• let’s help each other be better~